There are several things in my life that I really enjoy -- that give me life. In alphabetical order:
- Being a disciple of Jesus the Christ
- Julie, my bride
All of those things help to define me in one way or the other. However I spend very little time doing most of them. It has been over 3 years since I have hunted, I just started fishing again, I have to borrow tools to complete wood projects, and the last thing I wrote was the first blog post for this blog four years ago.
Why do I not engage with the things I love? Because I want to be the best at everything I do. If I write a blog post on resolutions and don't do any of the said resolutions or if I start reading a book (or 10 different books) and, maybe, complete 2 of them, I quit. And then soon I am defining myself not by the things that give me life, but by my self-perceived failures. So I just immerse myself in a hundred things that are of no consequence to get easy wins. What I did not realize is when I sell myself short by going after the easy wins all of the time and allowing myself to rest in mediocrity, I am also selling those around me short as well.
During a recent lunch with a friend I was challenged and encouraged to start doing the things I love and stop being paralyzed by fear. Not for selfish reasons, but for life-giving ones. Life-giving not only to me, but to those around me. My friend challenged me to invest in the things that God has given me healthy desires for and to cultivate them.
So today I write my second post on this blog that I started 4 years ago. This post will not win any awards for writing. This blog may never get read by more than family and close friends. And that is okay.